Never let me go, Kazuo Ishiguro.

Argh... I feel so unsettled after reading this book. The introduction at the back of the book definitely didn't prepare myself for what's inside. The first few chapters seemed pretty normal although there were hints that the story is not what I thought it would be. As the story progresses, I started to connect the dots and I start to see the book in a totally new way. The earlier events that that was narrated in the earlier chapters which seemed insignificant before now makes sense. But still... I'm disturbed by the world that the author has created. I am disturbed by the fact that society creates and destroy so easily for the sake of immortality. I am disturbed by the characters' resignation, their acceptance of their fate.

Those who are curious about what I'm talking about go get the book or if you're not up for it, go wiki the summary. The movie version, starring Keira Knightly, is scheduled to be released this year so maybe you can just wait for that. Am I going to watch it? Maybe.. we'll see. But whatever it is.. the author definitely left an impression on me and the book will linger on my mind for awhile. I'm sure.

Cancelled

We've cancelled our plans to send Azalia to school. I just think the place is not for her. I did however surveyed another school which is closer to home. It's pricier but the teachers are more qualified and the activities are more structured. I'm not expecting Azalia to be taught with no play. Helloo mana boleh lah kan. Budak baru 3 tahun of courselah learning through play. But what I mean by structured is there is a purpose for every activities they do and the kids are properly guided during the activities to ensure the objectives are met. Plus the students to teacher ratio are much less so each students can get more attention from the teachers.

Even though I think we've found a good place for her, we're holding it off another year. To ensure she gets the playtime she needs, I will plan for more activities after work and on weekends. So until next year, Azalia will be home schooled at night and on weekends. hehe.

It wasn't the baby who cried when she began nursery, it was her mother

Before you judge me. Read this.

Anyway, we've decided to send Azalia to nursery school. Huhuhu...I am so anxious about it. I hope she has lots and lots of fun. If she has more fun there then at home.. I'll be glad. Really glad. I just hope she eats and drinks her milk because currently if she has too much fun she won't do either.

Her babysitter (Nek Wan) is also worried about her cucu.

"Kurus lah cucu aku ni" was what she said to us.

Although it was kind of her to not say it out loud when we first told her about it. But as soon(the next day) as we told her we might only send her to the nursery for 3 days a week she immediately suggested we send her everyday for half a day and then back to her the other half of the day so that she can take care of her meals. I so want to do this but the logistics are going to be tough. But Asa suddenly said we can try doing that and I nearly jumped when he said he could pick her up and send her to the babysitter's in the afternoon. Huhuhuhu my hubby's the best!!!

So that's what we're going to do. Azalia will be part of T* Dynamic Kids starting Tuesday. At least half of the day, 5 days a week. For now.

On baking

Kicking off my baking reso, I've baked 2 batches of triple fudge brownies (one for sale and the other for Asma's birthday) and just recently Hawa's Peach Banana Crumble. Azalia helped with the brownies and she certainly had fun licking the leftover batter.

Next up is a simple butter cake but with a strawberry jam layer.

Funny how I'm posting this right after I've posted on eating healthy.. HAHAHA