Today's the day!!

Today's the day and I pray that everything will go smoothly. I'm trying to brush away any negative feelings.. aaahhh it's hard being a worrier. You tend to focus on the worse things that could happen.

The operation is scheduled at 3pm and if it's anything last time, it shouldn't take more than an a hour.

Told the doctor I want epidural because I want to be awake when my son is born and hold him immediately after.

Thinking about the whole thing makes me nervous so I'm just going to take it one step at a time. I hope I'm better in handling the pain afterwards... huhuhu.

Last meal... well not really.

Since I already have a definite date on when the baby comes, I've been drinking all the cold water I can and am eating the things I know I wont be having for 44 days (am thinking of cutting it down to 30days... is that ok you think??hehehe).

And with 3 days to go.. I'm thinking what else should I have that I haven't had for awhile and wont be able to have for a month's plus?

SUSHI!!!!!!

So I guess I know what I'm having for today's lunch time.. hehehe.

Prayers

Azalia's doa after prayers

Before my pregnancy

Azalia: "Ya Allah kasilah aku adik. Amin."

During pregnancy.

Azalia: "Ya Allah, biarlah adik aku keluar dgn sihat. Sihatkanlah Atuk and Tokwan jangan mati dulu. Amin.

Have to remember to ask her to include us too in her prayers.. hehe

Little things

Its amazing how its the little things your little one do that makes you proud of them.

Last night, I saw Azalia ate, washed her hands and cleaned up her mess all by herself without me telling her to. And she even went to the loo (the lights to the bathroom is a bit high so she took her stool and switched it on herself), washed herself, brushed her teeth and changed into her pyjamas all by herself.

And she did all this on her own because I told her I needed to take a nap because I was exhausted.

And of course when I woke up I praised her, thanked her for being considerate and gave her lots of hugs and kisses.

No.2 coming soon!!

So had my MRI result today and apparently I have to go for c-sect. Again. Surprised? A little bit. Sad?? Not really. Relieved? I think so.

I'm not as scared as before to go through it'll be my 2nd time. So I already know what to expect. I was actually very very nervous to go through normal birth this time around because it'll actually be my first time. Initially the doctor was very supportive of me having a normal birth because at the end of the day the natural way is always the best way. But due to my history, he did warn me he'd do an MRI nearing my EDD just to make sure. And yeah... apparently no normal births for me.

So.. looks like this one's coming out the window too and I have the opportunity to set a date. And I chose my dad's birthday, 12.03.12. Coincidently it's 3 days before my due date and having the ops before that is just too soon because I need to sort out a few things so that my mind will be more at ease. And it's also the school holidays so that's one thing I don't have to worry about. Azalia has already made plans to stay up late when I told her she might have to sleep with her atuk. Oh no!!

The only thing I'm not looking forward to is the healing period because it takes longer for me to be fully mobile. Which is annoying. Plus I don't want to stay in the hospital for so long. So my aim is max 3 days. Last time it took me 4 days. Oh well.

I pray baby and myself will get through this safely. Can't wait to meet baby A.

And I finally sent the nomination form to EPF just in case, told Asa where all the important docs are and my passwords... Yeah I'm a worrier like that. At least my babies will be taken care off if anything happens to me. I'd still be doing the same thing even if I'm having a normal birth.

So to a new life!!! Bring it on!!!