I was pregnant.............. but only for 4 days.

Well actually 7 weeks. But I only found out 4 days before I miscarry.... again.

At least I didn't snort when I cry this time.

When the sac came out it was much smaller than before. It was a white clear sac. Stained with a little blood but when I rinsed it, it was a white clear sac. I felt it coming out while I was praying Subuh this morning. Subhanallah.

Sure I cried. I also wasn't sure what to do next. Some has shown their concern by pushing me to investigate the cause of my recurrent miscarriages. Part of me wants to do it but part of me just want to sit still for now and wallow in self pity.

So this morning I did both. Made an appointment for tomorrow. Then I ordered some pizza and watch tv the whole day. It helped to distract me from the fact that I had 3 miscarriages in a row.

Azalia was also my comfort. She's my miracle. She's my little fighter.

p.s: mom and aunt suspects my immune system is rejecting the feotus because the pattern is that my miscarriages are between 7-10wks. I was also bleeding when I carried Azalia but maybe because it happened at 12weeks, she survived. Can't remember what the condition is called but should check with the doctor. I'll only know once a blood test is done.

Pray for us.

And please.. I'm not looking for any pity. I have enough of self pity. Hehe.

Madge

I've never been a fan of Madonna. Her songs well actually her voice, somehow.. never appealed to me. But when the Glee casts sang it (and they have a great voice)... I could finally appreciate her songs. Cool.

Somehow I can see Madonna's songs used for a musical just like Queen's songs in 'We will rock you'.

Did I say I love that Glee's back.

hehe

Banker to the Poor: Micro Lending and the Battle Against World Poverty, Muhammad Yunus

One word. Inspirational.

I was totally blown away by the honesty, the frankness, and the sincerity of Muhammad Yunus in wanting to eliminate poverty in this world.A must read in my list.He started Garmeen with a simple act of kindness and turned it into a bank that has helped millions of others. Reading the book made me want to be part of Garmeen Bank. I even googled Amanah Ikhtiar Malaysia, a program here in Malaysia based on the Grameen program. Truly an inspiring read.

Hello GLEE!!!!

Glee is back!!!!!!

And with a BANG I must say. Loved Rachel's and Jesse's version of Lionel Richie's "Hello".